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Friday, March 16, 2012 || Friday, March 16, 2012
smile and let everyone know that today, you're a lot stronger than you were yesterday.
it's funny how time flies at some periods of time especially when you are busy.
it's like before you have the time to rest, a new day starts and you need to get your feet on to do what you are supposed to do.
my life had been like this for this week.
and thus, i feel that this week passed especially fast, the first time i ever felt this week since you get enlisted.
nevertheless, i am thankful though it had been a tiring week, each passing day brings me closer to you :)
had been rather busy this week and i reckon in the coming weeks to come.
work non-stop from monday to wednesday, mostly full shifts and now thinking back, i wonder where my determination and perseverance came from.
i guessed sometimes, i do surprises myself :)
and right now, i am currently thinking of changing job, to a job with a higher pay cause i really need to save and plan ahead for my university expenses :(
but somehow whenever there is a need to save, i will end up spending much more than expected especially with the upcoming events :(
#1. Guides chalet, 4 days 3 nights, still not sure of my schedule yet cause it's on the weekends when the boy books out! :)
#2. the boy's birthday! :D
#3. sentosa trip with my clickies! :)
and my 3 consecutive weekends are all burn for april! ^^
#4. buying a camera with my sister soon
#5. upcoming birthdays?!!!!!!
and not forgetting those meetups with friends where i had to spend on eating.
this is precisely the reason why i need to have a higher-paying job and save, if not, the money is like forever going out and not coming in :((((
speaking of job, i got my first pay ever yesterday, it was slightly much more than expected but frankly speaking, i don't feel the sense of satisfaction and achievement i thought i will feel, maybe it's because i know i wouldn't get to touch the money.
but still, i know in the long run, the saving will benefit me :)
which reminds me, i feel rather bad, cause i don't understand why my days are all so packed and filled up?!!!!!!!!!
whenever my JC friends ask me to meet, i seems to not be able to make it as always, if not for the clashing of dates, it will be cause i am not free, or timings all mismatch :(
i will try to find a date for you all all rightz, most prob squeeze in time next week or the week after, sorry girlsz! :D
currently in the midst of doing applications for university.
it's a major headache, doing it can really stress me out, i spent almost a few hours doing just one application for a school with verity yesterday :S
and right now, i am almost done with only 1 school, wtfreak right.
shall continue during the weekends cause i am currently dying of exhaustion this week!
i really don't understand why is it so troublesome to just apply and study at a school, the procedures, some are quite redundant to me, but oh wellz, blame it on the stringent education system in singapore.
hopefully i will get all of it done soon so that it will be a load off my mind! :)
MY KINDERGARTEN BESTIE :D
the desserts are freaking niceeeeee, much nicer and more worth as compared to the one dessert bowl at serangoon gardens! new place in mind for desserts now^^
yays, credits to me :D
meet up with my kindergarten bestie today, finally like after so long!
it had been two years since we last saw each other and i am so glad we decided to meet up today babe! :)
it amazes me to know that we have practically known each other for more than half of our lives!
i remembered how we used to rely on each other during kindergarten times, doing all those funny, childish and epic shits together :)
and the most amazing thing is, we are still about the same, our interest, our passion and our thinkings! :)
i am so glad that we still kept in contact till now and meet-ups as promised okay! :D
fleas and picnic, goshhh, i can't wait to camwhore pretty pictures with you and gossip and crap like there's no tomorrow! :D
loveyou babe! :D<3
credits to hsiao qi! :D
sometimes, when i looked back and think, i feel really really blessed :)
blessed to have so many people who love me from their bottoms of their hearts and becoming a significant part of my life :D
a wonderful family who is forever there for me, the silly boy who is always so protective of me, awesomez groups of friends who are always there to listen to me rant, being there for me.
these people accepted me for who i am and never cease to believe in me during tough times.
i am glad to have people to turn to in times of need, indeed i am a blessed girl! :D
went for interview at MAS building yesterday morning.
oh wellz, all i can say is, chances of getting the job seems kinda slim but i know there are always plenty of other opportunities.
and to sum it up, formal wear really kinda sucks cause it got me feeling uncomfortable the whole day :S
and i bought a pair of flats too, just thought i should pamper myself since the flats was on offer as well^^
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got so bored of doing the uni applications that i started cam-whoring while my dear sis is sleeping cause she's feeling unwell and my dear mummy is busily typing away on the keyboard :)
let's all hope for a smooth job and applications done soon, in my case, it's both :)
JIAYOUs to myself :)
got a feeling this post is rather dull and full of my rantssssssssssss :)
oh wellz, at least i managed to update my blog like finally :)
cousins' meet-up tmrw, ktv session and sakae, can't wait though i am not a fan of sakae.
it's gonna be a rather busy week again next week, with ktv session on monday, working full shifts on tuesday and wednesday,thursday- my only free day to meet my jc girls next week :( and friday the boy's book out day! WOOHOOOOOO can't wait<3
it's gonna be a good week, finally get to see the boy, time please zoom past! :D
i guessed sometimes, everyone need to loosen up, stop worrying over every single thing, and just live for the moment, but most importantly, never get your priorities jumbled up.
i think i have a clearer idea of what i want to do with my life :)
do of what makes you happy
Friday, March 09, 2012 || Friday, March 09, 2012
sometimes, you need to step outside, get some air, and remind yourself of who you are and who you want to be.
the past two weeks of my life had been rather happening.
too much stuff happening which cause my life to take a 360 degrees turn and now i am currently in the midst of finding myself back :)
it's funny how i thought and imagine of the carefree life i will have in 2012, at least in the first few months of year 2012, but it turns out that actually, it's not as what i imagined.
unsettled problems, major decisions to make and being responsible for my own life.
and as what i said, the A levels results are out like one week ago.
nothing worth celebrating, i did badly, much worst than what i was expecting.
but i know it's time to get over it, no point crying over split milk like seriously.
but whenever i think back about it, i can't help but feel that bit of disappointment in myself :( hoping that this tinge of disappointment will die down with time :)
nevertheless, i wouldn't give up, i will definitely get back up even after falling.
A levels wouldn't define what kind of life i will lead or what kind of person i am, it's just merely a stepping stone in my life :)
but nevertheless, i am so thankful to have my awesumz family, him and those friends who really care during this period :D
thanks for those who drop me a text asking me how i was and all the encouragement and advices given :)
and now what's a major headache is applications to university! :<
so many factors into consideration, academic requirements, place of school, course fees,career aspects?!!!!!!!!
these few days just thinking of it is enough to drive me crazy. whenever i had more or less come to a conclusion, i always get swayed by people's opinions and it's practicality in this society.
i had been thinking, the course i had been wanting to study, people keep telling me there is limited field in singapore and that it's better to study something more practical, most preferably business.
i really just don't get their logic, forcing yourself to study something you have no interest in, how will you excel, how do you motivate yourself when it gets tough and how do you find that passion and drive towards life.
i really don't get it, look how singapore had mould the thinking of people nowadays..
and hopefully after visiting some open houses tmrw, i will have a clearer idea of what i want and then come to a decision.
already have a few choices in mind, hopefully, i will get into one of them :)
not gna let others thinking affect me, i want to make my own decision and learn to live with it :)
which reminds me, interview for admin job in a law firm on thurs, 15th :)
hopefully all goes well and i will get the job :) but feeling guilty towards current job :<
life's itself is a dilemna!
but formal wear, urghs :S think of the money,* hypnotizes myself*
good luck to myself :)
famous amos cookie yiling sis gave me!<3
thanks, it cheered me up a lot, thanks for always being here :)
cheeeer up too, my verity mummy, we will all work hard for our next phase of life okay, never give up! :D
thinking a lot about life recently.
thinking about all the stuff i want to do, thinking about all the dreams i want to fulfill.
i sweared i am going to make my next phase of life a fulfilling one and try to achieve all my goals :)
and also, start doing volunteery work! am determined to do this! i really want to help others with what i can :)
browsed through some guides pictures on facebook
looking at the pictures bring back so much memories~
looking at how we have all grown over the years, how we can transformed into young and demure ladies who's slowly taking charge of their own lives :)
it's funny how memories can always trigger those emotions deep within us.
missing those guiding times~<3
exactly two more weeks to seeing you<3
i am damm happy now, cause you know why :P
told you it will be okay :) HAHA
anw, hope you are coping well in army, must endure okay :)
today, during work, chatted with my colleague and she told me her boyfriend and her are already together for ten years!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ten freaking years!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and they are already past the stage of small quarrels and arguments but they are still as sweet as ever (:
i asked her, how do you survived army times with your boyfriend, she told me, quarreals are inevitable, but then your just got to make it work, there's no special formula, what's worth it will ultimately show in the end^^
i am so amazed, ten years hadn't been easy, and now they are both working hard to earn money for their marriage :D
feel so blissful for them :)
thanks for making time to contact me every night and even calling me, telling me how your day had been :)
it makes me feel like you are right here, next to me as always <3
i know we will make this work out(:
there are so many beautiful reasons to be happy :)
sometimes, all i wanna do is to stop time from ticking
Sunday, February 26, 2012 || Sunday, February 26, 2012
contentment is not the fulfillment of what you want, but the realization of how much you already have.
i just realised it's my 500th post! :)
how time flies, looking back at my archives, i started blogging since year 2004.
i can say that this blog recorded my growth throughout the few years :)
shall dedicate this 500th post to all my loved ones :D
i really cannot apprehend why the weekends always come and fly past?
and just like that, it's sunday already.
i guessed the short-lived weekends make it especially precious and it's what keeps most people going.
i still remember those schooling days where i keep counting down to the weekends so that i can have a short gateway from school and to repay my sleep debt.
those were the days~
laziness getting the better of me, for now, i can't even really survive with less than 8 hours of sleep.
sucks how everyone always adapt to bad habits so fast, thinking back, i feel so proud of myself for surviving on about 6 hours or less of sleep during my schooling days.
it really kinda amazes me how people can don't feel tired with super little hours of sleep, it's really a test of endurance for me!
and so, it's fecilia's birthday yesterday :D
HAPPY BEING 2O years old, girlfriendddd<3
clickies met up for two consecutive days to celebrate her birthday :)
mannnn, exhaustion can really kill us.
counting down, surprising her and stayover @ felicia's house.
having only about 3 hours of sleep before heading home for a short rest, changed and headed to my aunt's house before meeting clickies for dinner again.
i think i am rather weird, i keep wanting to have my days filled up but when they really are, all i want to do is slack and nua at home.
how contradicting human beings are seriouslyy but oh wellz, i survived the exhuastion :)
girlfriends forever <3
zilian-ing
HAPPY BURTHDAY FECILIA :D
you know i always love you<3
yayz, clickies ftw :D
surprise declare successful^^
though it wasn't any extraordinary or unique celebration, i still hoped she enjoyed her birthday with us :D
always comforting to know that we always have the bunch of people to fuss over each other birthdays every year :)
loveyou guys<3
5 more days to judgement day.
i really don't know how i should be feeling, somehow i have grown rather numb to the A level results.
even if i scored really bad, what can i really do but just accept it in my stride?
i got to move on to the next phase of life no matter what.
growing up really kinda sucks, too much decisions to make, too much planning to do.
but then again, i am feeling the jitters as the day draws nearer and nearer.
it's going to be tough for the next few months.
esp with the boy enlisting just next week :(
BIGSIGHS :(
i know we will make it thru together right? :)
that bag of uncertainties
Friday, February 24, 2012 || Friday, February 24, 2012
don't dwell on what could have been, you're not doing yourself any favours.
one thing i hate most about is uncertainties.
uncertain about what is going to happen next, uncertain about what i want in future, uncertain about results, uncertain about my next phase of life.
uncertain about everything, from the biggest thing to the slightest thing and this uncertainty really drives me crazy at times.
at times like this, i just can't help but doubt myself :(
and yes, another week down, i seems to be blogging on a weekly basis now.
one more week left to the freaking A levels results.
i am feeling the anxiety, fear and not much of excitement from the people around me.
often been thinking since the start of jc, where will my results lead me?
i really wanna do something that i like, something that i have passion for.
afterall, life is so short, i just want to try to fulfill my dreams and ambitions cause ten years down the road, i can look back and said i have try and leave no room for regrets.
sometimes, seeing people with so much drive and passion for life just amazes me so much, cause i know i have never ever feel this way before.
maybe it's cause i hadn't really been doing things that i like, and i always end up listening to other people's opinions.
and at times like this, i can't help but think, is it my life or theirs, why can't i have that little courage to pursue what i really want and like.
perhaps it's due to my cowardice which make me think twice about everything, or perhaps it's just reality that defeats me, cause i know how hard it is to survive in reality.
for now, i just really want to gain back that drive and determination towards life, facing up to all the ups and downs with optimism and be thankful for whatever happens.
i really hope i can do that :)
afterall, life is about living your life.
last weekend @ ernest's crib:
took so many pictures and we all agree it's the best out of the three :)
met the usual gang at ernest's crib last weekend.
just slacked around and play cards, had been so long since we all feel so relaxed and lazy.
like spending quality time with loved ones, even if it's just lazing around and doing nothing ^^
shall let it be a short post :)
rather lazy to update, had been kinda tired recently.
trying to get myself psyched for the weekend~
it's gonna be a long weekend, fun one i hope too! :)
enjoy your weekends guys, till then! :D
and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEAR FECILIA GF IN ADVANCE!<3
i will stay strong, for you<3
