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Tuesday, November 29, 2011 || Tuesday, November 29, 2011
some people come in your life as blessings, others come in your life as lessons.
and now, i officially bade goodbye to november, to the freaking A LEVELS and welcome december with open arms! :D
here comes my freedom.
it had been a rather long and torturing month, and till now, i still can't really accept the fact that i am done with the shitty A LEVELS which had been such a major nightmare :/
and after today, Alvls will just be nothing but a fading memory.
for the next few months, i gna start living my life and not give a thought to the Alvls anymore.
welcome to my new life :D
frankly speaking, the journey had been draining, exhausting and i still remember there were moments which i really cannot take the stress.
at times, i really had to urge to give up, self motivation doesn't work as well, optimism was getting nowhere, and i can't remember how i spend my school days.
it was well, counting down to the end of Alvls and that was what kept me going most of the times.
a few times i asked myself, what am i exactly doing in a jc, experiencing all the bullshit and misery where i could well better be off in a poly.
but after all the grumbling, whining, stress, tears, and misery, i had ended my jc journey.
it had been a tough one i would say.
that sense of helplessness that you feel when things aren't going your way;
that sense of misery when you very much wanted to make things better but it's just not within your control
that sense of angsty when you try your best but still are getting nowhere.
and if i were to say what i have really learnt throughout my whole jc journey is that, true friends are really really hard to find and you just got to be independent, someday.
i have seen the worst side of human beings in the last three years.
see how selfish human beings can get, see how uncaring they can be just to achieve good grades, see how friends leave each other to fend for themselves, see how people mention about not studying when obviously they are mugging behind people's backs, see how people judge each other without even knowing the whole story.
and this is what i experienced throughout my entire jc life.
at first, i felt that i was in hell, cause this was so different from what i use to experience.
i naively think that people all truly care about one another and that friends just help each other out, but obviously i was so wrong.
but as time goes by, i guessed i adapted and get used to it.
i learn to be independent and just not comment much about everything, like my sister always tell me "keeping silence is the best cause human beings are all selfish creatures".
and with that, i know that i have become stronger, and i am quite thankful for it :)
afterall, it's kind of nice being independent, it feels good knowing that you can depend on yourself at all times :)
but to add on, throughout my jc life, there were some gains and sweet memories which i know i will keep inside me forever :)
a few awesumz friends to tide you through those tough times, those awesumz friends who were there with you when you felt that school was too much to handle, those awesumz friends who were there to listen to you whine and relieving stress for you.
thankyou to my awesumz friends and vball girls! :D <3
and my dear sis, yiling who had always been there listening to me, comforting me when i breakdown and encouraging me at times when i didn't know who to turn to! MANY MANY LOVES! <3
all of these people had been a significant part of my school life, HEART YOU ALL VERY MUCH! :D
and not forgetting, my most important baby boy! :>
who is always there for me no matter what, and yaye, we survivied it till today together! :)
LOVEYOU VERY VERY MUCH! <3
on a random note, caught breaking dawn part 1 last week! :)
and conclusion is i kinda like it! :)
bella and edward make me believe in love :D
it's nice seeing how love can go to such great lengths.
two different individuals from different worlds embracing each other cause of love.
it's heart-warming, it make me realise that there's someone who can love you so much :)
and back to the movie, the scenes in this movie is really captivating :D
so it's a strongly encouraged to watch movie :)
and thanks again for watching the movie with me^^now i can't wait for the next part which will only be out next year ):
anticipation.
and right now feeling a bit sick, had been a bit feverish the whole day.
drats, what a nice timing. urghs max.
hope i will get enough rest and recover by tmrw.
outing with last year classmates tmrw, most probably the last gathering wit everyone of them since most of the guys are going into NS soon.
oh well and just saying, my hair's really short now leh!!! :/
and now the time where i will stress over money. omgawd.
oh well, stop worrying, start living! :)
cheerios.
himybabyboy<3
